100 - 1 = 99

remember the song "100 bottles of beer on the wall, 100 bottles of beer, you take 1 down, pass it around, 99 bottles of beer on the wall"? well that's sorta how i feel...except instead of bottles of beer, i'm thinking stories. i mean, so far i have only written 1, took it off of the wall, passed it around for 2 friends to read (haven't even passed it to a publisher yet) but i still have 99 more stories to write...give or take a 9.

after much encouragement i have decided to participate in a story challenge within a group from goodreads. mistake? i dunno. fear is taking root (as if it ever left) and i am now second guessing myself. i know, i know. the actual challenge hasn't even started yet and i am already freaking out. so not healthy. but i can't help it. the more i learn about the other participants, the more i grow in awe of their writing skills. and my work is supposed to hang with theirs? riiiiiight.

but maybe, just maybe, if i spent my time working on a story instead of freaking out, i might actually get somewhere! ah, what's that saying? the first one is always the hardest? or is it the first one is always the easiest? actually, i don't even know if either of those sayings are applicable to writing. *shrugs* but what i do know is that jay-z said it best when he sung "i got 99 problems but a bitch aint 1"!